The very reason I am writing this article is due to the above word.
Fear, meaning to be scared, threatened, apprehensive or worried due to someone or something is a word that crept up on me…while sitting in traffic.
Watching the brake lights on the car in front of me go on and off as it moved slowly forward I realised what I had time to feel today – and that was fear.
Why? I’ve lived life at a fast pace since I can remember. Never having time to realise, analyse or dwell on things. An extremely impatient man I am means I am always man handling life into the way I want it to be somehow.
After a wonderful 5 weeks visiting family and friends in London…and bringing my beloved old car to my new home here to Bulgaria, registering it and settling in routine again, all of a sudden I find that I have to go with the flow…a new venture looms work wise…very much an unknown. I can’t do it in autopilot. I have to learn. And learn fast.
I’m super excited.
And yet deep fear settled into me today at short notice when I wasn’t prepared for it. Will I make it work? What if? What if? What if?
I hate “what if?”. And yet it’s a bad habit I have.
Then I remembered that fear is simply an energy. So I have to rely on it to move me forward and ensure I’m successful. But first I have to convert the energy to keep busy. Keep my mind away from what ifs.
By understanding that fear and excitement offer the same nerve and emotion tickling sensation…except there is a difference.
With excitement you want to be exactly where you are.
With fear…well, fear makes you want to run.
Lucky I’m lazy. I don’t do running. I don’t rush. I move at my own pace.
And by writing this article I convert fears energy from negative to positive.
Excitement is here. Because I accepted fear for what it is – a form of energy. Up to you how you use it. I used it to write.
How could you use it wisely next time you experience this unsettling four letter word?